comfort in grieving
even the strong have their off days
and the weak their days of glory.
this is a tale of such a day,
and how i'll start my story.

it all started when a friend of mine,
the strongest of them all,
decided that she had to run,
not listening to the call

of someone else who loves her,
who can't see her leave.
the thought of our friend going away
tends to make her grieve.

something happened along the way
that had her come to me.
our friend said "you're the one
who can make her happy."

and then she just disappeared,
saying later, she'd be back.
afterward i found myself
picking up her slack.

and that's when she spoke,
she said "i can't breathe;
i can't live without her,
without her, i can't be."

i did not know what to do
except for just be there,
i didn't know what there was to do
but just showing that i care.

right now as i think about
what happened just then,
i see things just..normal,
as if it hadn't been.

but things aren't that easy,
the pain just doesn't leave..
so until our friend returns,
i have to watch her grieve...
- ©landa 2002

Sunday, Aug. 11, 2002 - 5:56 pm

Heart Shaped Box

Last Five
to know you - Sunday, May 01, 2005
..? - Sunday, Apr. 03, 2005
something's gotta give. - Wednesday, Jul. 28, 2004
taken away - Thursday, Feb. 05, 2004
what is love? - Tuesday, Jan. 13, 2004

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Playlist
+ wind's nocturne from lunar: the silver star story
+ heart shaped box // evanescence
+ valentine // martina mcbride
+ don't stop dancing // creed
+ screaming infidelities // dashboard confessional
+ you were mine // dixie chicks
+ slow down // ben jelen
+ dare you to move // switchfoot
+ fukai mori // do as infinity
+ breathe no more // evanescence
+ gravity of love // enigma
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landa; eighteen; lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
Loves
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.

Hates
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.