nothing more
she's just my friend and nothing more
she's just my friend and nothing more
she's just my friend and nothing more
but tell me, why do i feel more?
more than the love i've ever felt
for any friend i've had before?

these feelings, so hard to explain
ones that i've never felt before.
i want to run, i want to fly,
i want to breathe the way i did
before i learned somewhere inside
that somehow, i feel so much more.

she's just my friend, she's always been
it's just that now... i just don't know.
i stay up at night and try to think
to figure out just what i feel.
some tell me that it's love, but now
it's unrequited, never to be.

..or is it?

she's never led on she believes
she feels even near the same way.
i'd like to think somehow she does,
but why would she? i'm just me.
who would want me as i am?
no one. especially not her.

i need to know once and for all
if she sees me like i see her.
it's causing too much stress and grief
not to know what she believes.
she's just a friend and nothing more,
but dammit, i want so much more...

Monday, Dec. 30, 2002 - 2:57 pm

Heart Shaped Box

Last Five
to know you - Sunday, May 01, 2005
..? - Sunday, Apr. 03, 2005
something's gotta give. - Wednesday, Jul. 28, 2004
taken away - Thursday, Feb. 05, 2004
what is love? - Tuesday, Jan. 13, 2004

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Playlist
+ wind's nocturne from lunar: the silver star story
+ heart shaped box // evanescence
+ valentine // martina mcbride
+ don't stop dancing // creed
+ screaming infidelities // dashboard confessional
+ you were mine // dixie chicks
+ slow down // ben jelen
+ dare you to move // switchfoot
+ fukai mori // do as infinity
+ breathe no more // evanescence
+ gravity of love // enigma
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landa; eighteen; lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
Loves
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.

Hates
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.