sidelines
i hear all your talk of love and
wonder if it's meant for me and
ask how it is that you can
promise one day it will be.

you're in love with him and
having the time of your life knowing
every day and night there's
a pair of arms there, just for you.

how you can't tell, i'll never know but
i die each time you speak of him and
tell me how great your love is for
the one who has your heart.

i stay watching from the sides and
all i see is doubt that i'll
ever find someone for me who
makes me as glad as he makes you.

don't get me wrong, i'm glad that you've
found this love which makes you so
truly happy, inside and out but
i can't keep from wishing that

i could find a love so true which
would last through times bad and good and
make me appreciate the dawn for
another day to spend with my love.

i just wish i knew what even some of
that emotion must feel like inside, but
i can't at least not sometime soon so
i'll just sit here and dream.

Saturday, Jul. 26, 2003 - 4:28 pm

Heart Shaped Box

Last Five
to know you - Sunday, May 01, 2005
..? - Sunday, Apr. 03, 2005
something's gotta give. - Wednesday, Jul. 28, 2004
taken away - Thursday, Feb. 05, 2004
what is love? - Tuesday, Jan. 13, 2004

Buddies
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Playlist
+ wind's nocturne from lunar: the silver star story
+ heart shaped box // evanescence
+ valentine // martina mcbride
+ don't stop dancing // creed
+ screaming infidelities // dashboard confessional
+ you were mine // dixie chicks
+ slow down // ben jelen
+ dare you to move // switchfoot
+ fukai mori // do as infinity
+ breathe no more // evanescence
+ gravity of love // enigma
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landa; eighteen; lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
Loves
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.

Hates
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.