..?
now i absorb
from afar
what you look like,
who you are
through photographs i found
in the hall,
of that day we took off
together.

and i wish that i could
remember for myself
as not just some
.f.a.d.e.d...m.e.m.o.r.y.
of how your skin felt,
the taste of your kiss,
the way you felt
when i thouched you
like this.

so i just sit here
and try to imagine
who you're with,
where you are,
do they care?
are you scarred?
and then i wonder
"do i still matter too?
or was i
a fleeting moment
not even in your heart,
but in
my own dreams
..?"

Sunday, Apr. 03, 2005 - 1:52 am

Heart Shaped Box

Last Five
i wish for you - Friday, Nov. 25, 2005
untitled - Monday, Sept. 26, 2005
addiction - Monday, Aug. 22, 2005
the storm - Friday, Jun. 10, 2005
to know you - Sunday, May 01, 2005

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+ wind's nocturne from lunar: the silver star story
+ heart shaped box // evanescence
+ valentine // martina mcbride
+ don't stop dancing // creed
+ screaming infidelities // dashboard confessional
+ you were mine // dixie chicks
+ slow down // ben jelen
+ dare you to move // switchfoot
+ fukai mori // do as infinity
+ breathe no more // evanescence
+ gravity of love // enigma
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landa; eighteen; lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
Loves
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.

Hates
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.